Narcissus' Feeding

It's not a fault to fall for a narcissus,
It's not a fault to love a narcissus.

Being mean doesnt mean she's intending to,
She just can't feel a thing.
She just cant understand what it's feel to touch or be touched.
She just a vulnerable being with a deteriorate personality,
Shouldn't be judge for everything she's lack.

Feel what she felt,
How worse could it be a rainbow without it's colors?
How worse could it be a music without it's rhymes?
How worse could it be a human without it's soul?

She would feel even worse if she ever realize,
For how lost she is, whithout the ability to love and be loved,
For how contempted she is, without the understanding of a deeper meaning.

For she is, a perfect distortion of miracle, need to be unveiled with all the secrecy,
For she is, an absolute being need to be touched the way she is,
For she is, who need to be loved the most for her delicacy.

Hell Goddess

You there,
Always left me unanswered,
When Im in my low,
When im at lost.

Sometimes a word could give everything,
Sometimes a word could take everything.

How could we fell deeply,
For some who could never felt a thing?

How could you act like you care damn much,
When you only care for no other than you?

How could you let me taste all the sweetest things,
While you intend to left me all alone in this pain?

Is it so beautiful,
To watch others dying for you?

Cursed you damn straight from hell.

xFxUx

Himself

He have no choice but to stay strong,
Yet he is broken,
He fell apart,
Become tired,
Of everything.

He might have lost,
In this vast collision,
Of everything,

Whatever coming,
He will put a smile on his face,
Work hard thus this perfect lie,
Could be end as one.

Just in the corner,
In the end of everything,
In the small unguarded space,
Where everyone can't put their eyes on,
He struggle more than he could,
For every mess that knock his door,
While some more might coming,
He lies without his strength no more,
Cry as hard as he could,
Hoping if,
If one would come and wipe all his tears,
Holding him right there,
Telling him everythings gonna be fine,
For all this pain coul end soon.

But no one seems coming,
None other than the fucked up moment,
And now he is tired of waiting too.
How could life be so hard on him?
Where could everythings go wrong for him?
He just wanna take a peek from the other side of world.
But for now he found nothing more than misery & pain,
Life show him no mercy.

As 'the voice' within his heart ask him to be strong,
On every wave that coming,
Said the sunshine will come brighten up his days,
His days of coming,
If he is willing to stay and rise up his face,
Walk on if he would.

But on the hardest moment,
He felt like ending everythings up,
He is so sorry for everyone,
For himself,
For his weakness that come along with him,
He was so hard on himself sometimes,

Who else could understand him more than himself?
Seems like no one could,
He might born just to end up alone,
Just like he was born.

Mass, Matter & Aether.

Creation beneath the mass,
Creator underneath the matter,
As The One contain the whole,
As the universe manifestation of Oneself.

Breaking down those 4 major elements bring out the Aether.

While thou in the Aether form,
Reconstruct everything accordingly for thy conciousness art free from the gravity and nucleus bond relativity.

The beauty is within the Einstein's Theory of Everything.

Though pilgrim desserted on the journey,
The sacredness is One to define.

-Kun, The Alchemist-

Tuhan

Siang malam tetap berganti,
Dalam detik waktu yang berlari

Di sunyi hening pagi,
Antara memori dan fantasi,
Aku tenggelam lemas dalam renungan,
Setiap khilaf seusia hidupku.

Meratapi termanggu seorang,
Menangisi tanpa bayang.

Gembira, pedih, sakit,
Bergelumang dalam mentaliti.
Jiwa rabak diranjau hidup.

Ya, hidup dan kehidupan,
Masih banyak penipuan,
Masih ramai yang kelesuan,
Kerana butanya pada kepalsuan.

Tentang pengorbanan,
Banyak telah yang aku korbankan,
Banyak telah aku kehilangan.

Antara pilihan kehidupan,
Aku tetap memilih kebenaran,
Kebenaran disebalik penipuan,
Kebenaran disebalik kepalsuan.

Kerana kebenaran aku disalahtafsir,
Kerana kebenaran aku dipinggir,
Kerana kebenaran tersingkir.

Tersingkirnya aku dari seluruh kewujudan sistem perosak hampir membunuh,
Tapi aku degil dari maut,
Aku tetap lahir dalam nafas baru.

Memang terkadang bebas,
Memang terkadang perit,
Bebasnya aku kerana tiada lagi yang mengikat jiwa ku,
Peritnya aku kerana tiada lagi yang memahamiku.

Jalanku sunyi sepi,
Bukan niatku memencil diri,
Tapi gagalnya jiwa lain memahami.

Bohong kalau aku tak ingin dimengerti,
Tapi belum tiba yang memahami,
Yang datang adalah yang mengikatku dari terus melangkah,
Dan akhirnya tetap pergi.

Walau perit,
Walau sepi,
Aku cuba untuk tidak mengalah,
Walau aku terpaksa bersendiri,
Walau jatuh bangunku atas tangan dan kaki sendiri.

Ramai yang mengaku bertuhan,
Tetapi angkuh menafikan perjalanan ku,
Sedang mendabik dada mengaku beriman.

Biarkan aku yang salah,
Biarkan aku yang sesat,
Kerana rahsia kebenaran yang ku singkap,
Tetaplah rahsia bagi mereka,
Hanya bukti pengalaman bagi yang mencari,
Juga bagi yang cuba memahami.

Aku tersenyum,
Memecahkan kesunyian bulan dan bintang,
Menikmati kebenaranku,
Kebenaran dalam perjalananku,
Perjalanan mencari yang bernama 'tuhan'.
Abadi yang sentiasa menemani.

xSt.Honourx

Hidup atau Kehidupan

Lahirnya Aku buat tertanya-tanya.

Siapa Aku sebelum hidupku?
Siapa Aku dalam hidupku?
Dan apakah tujuan hidupku?

Adakah hanya sekadar hidup seperti lahirnya setitik yang tak punya makna pada alam semesta?

Atau adakah hadirnya Aku untuk memenuhi keperluan alam semesta?

Adakah hidupku hanya sebagai hidup yang memutar dalam pusingan roda?
Menghadapi dan mengulangi setiap cerita sama?
Setiap hari sepanjang hayatku?

Kalau itulah adalah mustahil bagiku untuk menjalani hidup norma.

Antara rahmat dan sumpahan, Aku terpaksa.
Terpaksa merasai dan menjiwai setiap perasaan dan fikiran setiap yang hidup.
Terpaksa menghayati setiap kesakitan dan kedukaan alam semesta.

Itulah kegilaan yang menjadi tanda tanya,
Kegilaan yang membatasi Aku untuk terus hidup pada yang norma.

Aku cukup gila sehingga Aku sedar,
Sememangnya bukan milikku semuanya,
Setiap seribu suara yang bermain di fikiran dan jiwa.

Cukup masa sampai pada kesedaran Aku yang nyata.
Lalu Aku meronta mencari kehidupan.
Kehidupan yang bukan hanya sekadar hidup.
Tapi sebuah kehidupan yang terselit dibalik seluruh kebenaran.

Gilanya Aku kerana menolak kebenaran yang dibentangkan.
Gilanya Aku kerana mencari kebenaran yang disembunyikan.
Gilanya Aku kerana menemui bahagian ku.
Gilanya Aku kerana berani tersisa seluruh hidup semata mencari kehidupan.

Antara tekad keberanian atau sekadar kegilaan,
Aku berjalan tanpa menoleh.
Membiarkan suara gempita untuk terus berada dibelakangku.
Dan mustahil bagiku andai sebuah kegilaan.
Kerana setiap titia air mata membuahkan hasil yang bermakna.
Dalam setiap lapisan hijab yang telah ku singkap.

-jack_stnr-

In The Shadow.

Its a day without a light rise,
As One would lead by The Man,
Into Man's behaviour judgement..

Stripped into nothingness,
Not more than the masquerade,
Being at false under the silver string..

Lead by heart,
The spell would be broken,
As the soul will be free,
From One's another to One's another..

Now then The Eye might see,
The truth within the truth,
The light beneath the light,
Befit the darkness clarify the light..

In stance,
No more another step,
As the light pour through inner soul,
Befall into One's sweet serenity..


-J.K. Rolling-

En Route...

Stop on your another step..
You might step on faults..
While you at your own,
There is no one to catch..

Its a route that blind you..
Cuts and blood will definitely do..
Strength that left when you breath of the trees,
The moist on the tips of the leaves..

You might lost, 
You might struggle,
You might come to relativity..

When you do,
Remember always,
It is not a route of killing wild,
It is a route of taming nature..


xrouterx

Asshore

I would dwell inside of this tortured grieve..
Inside of the solitary walls..
There is no bound for horror,
No room for mercy...

My eyes can't be taken off without drop of tears..

Someone who grow in the seek of love might end up with hatred..
While hatred might be nourished by some loves..

Eyes doesn't have to see the string that bind our lives..
Let the hearts feel the bond that strip to our conscieness..

That thighs of burden of the whole world doesn't seem fated to be stuck on your head and shoulders alone my dear..
It's ours to begin with.. 
As what made us, humanity..


---

Crayon Stars

The purity of snow of the absolute white of the blank lamination..
The innocent decent of mere soul..
The serenity of environment full of colors of crayons...

There might be a cramped, crabbed scratches of sketches..

But then,
There can always be a lot of beutiful shining stars lapped on those misseries..

As that beautiful hands that shape everything..
To be the past,
The present,
Thus the future...


=]

Towards Infinity...

The circle made life so square and definite..
Yes or no...
Left or right...
Negative or positive...
Correct or wrong...

To the speed of light,
To the wave of sound,
To the rate of change of everything,
To the everything itself...
That have to be some kind of formulae,

Before all of connections of transmissions of neurons' interconnection,
Yet it still untouchable of the whole cosmic..

Therefore must be a secret ancient guidance of an unorthodox behaviour countermeasure,
Behind of those imperial precisely calculation,
That lead to the certain plain miscalculation so inhumanly called the human error..

Unforeseen of those exact clear-cut of the mathematical judgement,
There are always hidden of the unambigous truth possibilties among the others..

As the total perfect cirlces lies within the infinity itself..
As it goes for the infinitely cosmic...


-human.being-

A Bless Curse...

Everyone born with a curse..

Either they realize it or not, either they like it or not.. And suiciding is never an option as once your soul choose to step up in life, your game can't never been withdrawn.. It matters of winning or losing either..

No matter how we look at it, our curses will never be undone till we ourselves untie the knots.. Yes, it's a curse with thousands of knots..

Untying it is like opening the pandora box.. It's a cursed self, full of beasts and monsters and secrets.. All the beasts and monsters are all holding the keys to each and every of your secrets.. We have to let them behold before us or else they are forever corrupting our souls..

Behind those tying knots you might ever find you, yourself within your deepest inner peace with full of conscienceness..

It's sound like bullshit when some are understanding others better than themselves..

It's sound like fuckingshit when some are loving others more than themselves..

How could a mere soulless soul understanding and loving those fragile soul of others??

It is a cursed with lot of pain and misery to each and every souls that lost their place called home..

It's not a matter of living a life.. They called it live alive..

Thus, how far can a soulless soul be alive??

—X—

Love Letter From The Anonymous..

Dear 'Stranger',

I'm always wandering,
Aimlessly without nothing,
In search of life..
In search of you..

For every path that I'm mistaken,
For every road that was wrong taken,
I'm getting more eager to look for you..
I'm growing stronger to be by side of you..

It is hurt for me,
And it might do the same to you,
As we were always parted,
Since we were bear to this world..

We may have bumped to each other,
At the right place but a wrong time,
As there still a journey for us,
Thus that we will appreciating each other,
More than ever..

You might never have noticed yet,
That my heart was meant yours..

But,
For me,
In my day and my night,
In my wake and my sleeps,
I'm deeply yearning for you..

And it's only all of you..

Be well 'Stranger'~
Be well my lover~



Sincerely,
-anonymous-

I Heart You, 'Stranger'...

It's not we are barely know each other,
For real were have met never before..

Thus, in a glance i got stumbled on you..
Its feel like we have ever known forever..

I can see it such completely me on the other side,
While half of me wait from hereside..

I get a feeling that your heart, into of what is mine in sense of an extrovert..
While my heart, into of what is yours in sense of an introvert..

The glimpse of yours just appeared from nowhere,
At the wrong time but when I really need you the most..

I can't approach you all of sudden as someone would definitely get hurt..

And for that only reason,
I would rather have myself and me alone that hurt the most,
As I am for sure for this hunch that no one can ever endure this pain that will come forth..

For your soul if the truly perfectly match mine,
Hence no worry,
For soon will us run to each other once and for all,
As a soulmate of one another,
As deeply in our heart's wish for the rest of the world..

You are so near, yet you are so far..
I don't know you, yet I'm truly missing you..
Yes, it's you..

I can't explain all of these metaphysics and psychedelics reasoning and causes,
But I think I'm falling for you..
Truly madly deeply for you..
Yes, it's you..

I'm sorry for being late..
I'm sorry for not being by your side at a time,
That time when you fall, that time when you cry, that time when you need a shoulder the most..
I'm sorry for not being there for you..
I'm sorry for there is no other words can get to you..
I'm sorry..

I'm sorry,
And I love you..

Even if I'm breaking apart,
Even if it's killing me,
Even if I have to bear this all alone,
But still for you,

Yes, i do...



-jack_hurt-

jangan kau Bergundah Gulana

Kau,
Dan seluruh hati mu..

Kau senyum ketika mereka seloka,
Kau ketawa ketika mereka bercanda..

Hari-hari mu kau penuhi seperti biasa,
Membawa diri mu sepenuh jiwa..

Hatimu yang sempurna,
Hati yang keras itu pernah terluka,
Hati yang tegas itu pernah kecewa,
Namun tak sekali ia hilang kelembutannya..

Hidup kau dipenuhi dengan setiap cerita,
Namun jauh di sanubari mu ia masih kosong dan sengsara..

Disaat kau merenung jauh mencari cebisan hati mu,
Di kala itu kan ku hembus separuh diri mu,
Yang telah sekian lama melengkapi jiwa ku..

-jack_stnr-

Secrett...

Keep quiet from this insolency..

I gotta hold my breath..

Say I would never have to sorry,
Cause there is no to worry..

Tears and joy,
Forgetting bout the misery,
Henceforth of this boundary,
No lies would beneath..

I hear ur whisper,
I hear ur secret..

It's a lot to wish,
Yet it's all that come true..

There's lot more to praise,
But fovever never these words would replace..

Thank you for am loving myself...


-jack_stnr-

The Grace of Perpetual Sanctity

Thou whom shall defy'th to us,
As the ray of day might warmth thy heart,
Thee would fall beneath these serenity,
Before the eternity thou shall blisst..

Thou whom shall defy'th to us,
As the soundly night might spare thy mind,
Thee would content'th through tranquility,
Nother to these Eden thou lay'th solely..

Dense to these piousness thou dost perisht,
Depth to these devoutness thou dost devourt,
As naybound for us to heart and soul,
Pledge'th utterly toward affection of divinity..


~jack.speare~

Sacred Journey

It is an empty road,
The best place i ever cross..

As the wind blow to the deepest of heart,
Through the hollow on my chest,
It's cold and fridging my feeling..

Since the last ones that past by,
I couldn't bear their accompany..

My lungs was screaming,
As it seek its liberties.. 

For my sense can't foresee it,
Am break to piece and piece,
Shattering my solidity..

I'm though yet am blur,
As the night was forever,
But the moonlight was never,
Together with stars it's disappear..

It's a desire to rest my nap,
In the last deep breath,
I fall to the deep sleep..

What is this sound? It's so amusing,
I can't remember the last bird chirping..

What is this warmth? It's so cozy,
I can't remember since the last day I woke instead..

At East it rise to West it set,
As my sense all come back,
As my destiny all come clean,
I bring all of myself back,
And set foot on my absolute path..

Now that am well aware of my inabundancy,
I'll stop holding me back definitely,
With this only myself of my life,
Tenderly I roam through out The Infinity..

-St.Honour-

Asonansa Sang Pertapa,

Hitam kalam kian berirama,
Saat bicara nafsu menjelma,
Kuat menumbang diri Sang Raja,
Menggelupur hamba mendabik dada..

Belengu sudah tiap suara,
Yang dulu gah mencokmar kuasa,
Tersungkur di balik bayu singgahsana,
Tersesat sudah haluan semesta..

Kerena buta jatuh terleka,
Dibuai indah sinaran suria,
Sedang dihunus gejala bermata,
Sesaat sudah tercantas kepala..

Selagi jantung nafas terhela,
Tak mudah tunduk pada si puaka,
Menuntut Sang Raja sebagai hamba,
Tersentak berjalan mengenal dirinya..

Setiap jalan atas kakinya,
Setiap beban dipikul badannya,
Setiap tragedi meruntut hatinya,
Setiap memori membenak akalnya..

Tak sudah juga akhir jalannya,
Selagi meraba pada yang fana,
Sampai dibiar jasad hanya merasa,
Maka lahir diri Sang Raja menyata..

-jack_stnr-

Manifestation of FEAR’

Needless of darkness to be seen blind,
Needless of silence to be heard deaf,
Needless of taciturn to be spoken mute..

Among the light lies the lie,
Among the clamorous seize the slender,
Among the words held the hoax..

Liberally left as lonesome in this libels' lair,

Fed on the false face as one faith were faded,

Waiting as when the wicked woven would wrapped,

Ditched to distort as devoured to death..

Once more, as hereafter;
This walk, has never begin..

Xsoulless voyagerX